I too am a Vet. and second what Rayhill said. For me, it is a time for me to get away from the normal stressors of life, a chance to clear my head. I have trouble focusing on one thing because of my PTSD and this allows me too. To stalk the Bluelines in search of a hole that will produce is theraputic. I understand that you may not be able to continue with this and I feel for you but, you can focus on something you can do, do it well and allow it to seep inside you. Wishing my prayers your way for a Merry Christmas.
