all the seven years I've been on the forum this is my favorite of your writings. It is a shot straight from the heart. I expect you will have some grieving to do regarding the old home and that makes sense. Meanwhile you will put your mark on the new house thereby making it a home over time. YOu will miss things, you will find new things and the quest for finding self continues. Best wishes to you. I don't think Montana has those blasted blackberries. I won my battle with them - took some hard work. Good luck, fish lots, be well.