Nighthawk, why is it I don't remember your name? I know I have seen it. Anyway, I have had my times of unmitigated fear and anger over this. It wasn't until I saw that my only recourse was to give the problem to God that I started seeing just how blessed I am. Since I ave the problem to God, our needs have been met. I am at a world class cancer center with a scary smart oncologist who is is cross trained in multiple cancers as well as internal medicine and has an MBA on top of all of that. He went to work for University 5 days before I was diagnosed. There is much more. Much much more. God has me. I know that as well as I know my own name.