That news really hurts me to read. Your request will be handled on this end. I am in such a shock to read your post that I do not know what else to say except that it hurts. Just remember that He is in control and it is His Will that we must honor. We may not understand His Will at this time, but, we will one day.
I am so sorry.....Please keep the Faith.....
Fly fishing and fly tying are two things that I do, and when I am doing them, they are the only 2 things I think about. They clear my mind.