Coming to terms with the death of a sibling or other family members is difficult.
I have have lost my grandparents, aunts & uncles, cousins, so I know the hurt and difficulties that arise with the death of a family member.
I am the middle boy of three sons my parents raised, all of us are five years apart in age, and really never had much to do with each other our whole lives. I just had my 62nd birthday on February 9th, wow where did the time go to, it seems only yesterday when I was in my 30's.
Now my older brother (John) has had a stroke, and he does not have much time left.... he is my brother, but over the years we became strangers....
So in a way I am going through what you have gone through with the death of your brother. My prayers are with you and all your family....
"Everyone you meet in life, give you happiness! Some by their arrival, others by their departure!" ~Parnelli