went to doc today. the biopsy says it's definitely cancer. the pathologist couldn't say whether it's squamous cell or a transfer. tests start tomorrow at 11:15. the list the doc gave me is for 4 tests. i was really close to tears of fright then something inside kicked in and said fear is the way to become defeated. i'll not be defeated because of fear. so i got myself into the present and told the doc lets get on with it and do everything we can. there'll be a colostomy at some point in the near future and nearly 100% probability of chemo. no radiation, i had all the radiation one person can take in 2009. my wife, family and friends are 100% in support and i'll very likely get involved in one of the many cancer support groups here. i'll bless each day as it rolls around, live it to the fullest my old body and soul can muster.