I can?t stand it.

I am torn for the 1st time in my life with the outdoors. Whether it is better to continuing seeing deer but the not the one of my choice yet or go get the fly rod out and go steelhead fishing on the catt. . Its tributaries will be clear by late Monday.

Here I am in a double bull blind surrounded by apple trees and deer are 10 ft away and I am reading the Steelhead guide by John Nagy and trying to master the Open Clinch Knot. Let me tell ya, I?m between a rock and a double bull and losing sleep over it.

I enjoy the hunting, even more the beauty that Mother Nature has offered me. The steelhead and the fly aspect are a tremendous challenge. I haven?t mastered it in any shape manor and even more form. The waders are hanging off to my left with all my gear. The light shimmers off them as I type and in the morning light they glow even when it?s cloudy out.

I love them both, what I should I do?


Philip